it's just amazing how fair people can be

Sylivia Plath once said this you know.

It occurred to me late last night that my actions in telling Pip I wanted to marry her could be seen as somewhat dubious. The thought being that if I say this thing to her, I then have to do it. This then meaning the moral reasoning around moving from home and abandoning a 17 year relationship, is less bad than lying to someone. I have now created the situation where I have to go ahead and be with her because it's the least worst thing I can do.

There is also the method by which I chose to convey this message of marital permanence. The bloody Internet. Goodness, what a hopeless case I am.

I do think its where we've always talked best. And never mind the fact I put her on the spot. never mind that it had little romance to it, never mind the shock value and never mind the damage I could have caused to our love.

I thought about these things for a bit anyway, and then rejected them mostly, falling back on the Sylvia defence.

Being an amazing dancing bear and dazzling your sweet love is important too isn't it ?

JVIP